Tuesday, April 21, 2009

How Did It Happen?












If there is anyone out there that still cares or wonders, things are about the same. I am still lost, stumbling around in the darkness, lost in the fog of too much work. My life is clearly going down the toilet and I don't know how to get it back. Why did I allow this to happen?

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Screams And Static

static


I'm still here . . . still trapped on the other side . . . my screams slowly fading into static . . . .

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Waiting, Knowing, Expecting













Head tilted back, arms out stretched, faster and faster . . . s
pinning round, turning round, falling down dizzy . . . rolling down hill, arm over arm, leg over leg . . . waiting, knowing, expecting the THUMP!

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Just My Luck










What have I gotten myself into? How did I allow this to happen? Questions I'm still asking myself. Mama didn't raise no fool, but when I look into the mirror, I see one staring back at me. I worked hour after hour, gave up pleasure after pleasure to make sure the project was a success and thought once I had it completed and presented I could capture the life I once knew, once had, but NOOOOOOOOOO! Believe it or not, there is such a thing as doing too good of a job. Just my luck, the project was a major success, the presentation was a major success, and the bonus I received more than compensated for the long hours, but if I knew then what I know now, I would have given it second thoughts. I never thought for one minute this project would turn into a major life change. The life I once knew, had is gone. I use to work some long hours but only a day here, a day there, actually had more days off than on, but because of the "job well done" I've been asked to step back into a working/teaching position which will involve seven days a week for the next several months. Why me? Why can't I say, NOOOOOOOOO! Go ahead, take a magic marker and write FOOL across my forehead.................I deserve it!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Update











The tunnel was long but I have finally made it to the end, or close enough to at least see the light. The project is finished, presentation isn't officially until tomorrow, but it has already been signed off on, and the presentation is only a formality. There were some dark days, extremely long days, some I almost gave up days, but I hung in, I refused to throw in the towel. Now, maybe I can get my life back to some normalcy, if there is such a thing. Heart-felt thanks to each of you that stopped by, thanks to each of you that sent loving, caring emails. I will always hold your friendship inside a cherished place, my heart, and with each of its beats, I will always be reminded of you. Hopefully soon, I will be getting around to saying hello to all my blogging family, but until then, I think I will enjoy the rest of today, the world, outside. ((((HUGS))))

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Sending Out A SOS......














I'm sorry, truly, sincerely, honest I am. Please forgive me for not visiting, I miss you all dearly. I've been saddled with a new project and I am bogged down up to my you-know-what and there doesn't seem to be enough hours in the day or days in the week to get everything accomplished. I've been given a strict deadline and I will meet it or die trying, not because of the consequences but because I love a challenge and I will prove it can be done to those not willing to take it on. When you talk to the BIG GUY up stairs say a little prayer for me, I'm going to need all the help I can get.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Someone to Love




















Is it too much to ask for?